The Way

I have been very busy lately.  Busy with work and with myself.  I have been reading up on eastern philiosophy more specific Toaism.  It talks about how The Toa or The Way can not be described but it is everything.  In its teaching the bad and good come with both and that each event is a step in your journey.  One should worry about tomarrow and not angst about the past but live today to its fullest.

Reading the Tao Te Ching and about Taoism,  I feel partly I have been already living most of my life by it.  I will push myself a bit deeper in this new philosophy and see where it takes me.  For it definatly has change a lot for me already.  I have take more time for myself, which lets me deal with problems with more of a level head.  Now if it could only help grow back some of my hair it would be nice oh welll hahaha.  Life seems a little a little less driery and I am becoming more adventurous too. 

I am starting to date again.  I am a bit worried but I will give it a chance and see what my heart tells me for it hasnt led me wrong yet.

Here is to anther great step in my journey and the adventure that lies ahead.

Delightful Dish

I had the most amazing time tonight.  Instead of the usual to and fro of work and home. I paid a visit to a comrade. After a meet of his fellow coworker and a few high and mighty customer, we made our way to target looking at clothes, games, magazine, and some housewares talking about life and its doing.  Afterwards we made our way toward Dish.  I unique eclectic, homey restraunt with delicious food.  I had the chicken pesto sandwich with their house made mac and cheese. Rusty had one of his favorites the portabella quesadillia.  My sandwich was amazing, great pesto, juicy marinated chicken filling without feeling overwhelmed.  The mac and cheese was good, nothing special; I just felt it need a bit more cheese.  It was refreshing to see and taste mac and cheese made from scratch and not from a box though.  I also got to indulge in a bit of Rusty's quesadillia which was simple but packed with full of flavor.  The portabella mushrooms were marinated and merried well with cheese making a gooey combo which is wrapped in a crunchy flour tortillia.  Not wanting to end the night too early we drove and talked about how we are coping with our somewhat recent friend leaving to explore a whole new venue.  Even though we miss him a lot, we are managing to composing one another.  Overall this was a great escape of the 9-5 or sometimes 7-6 and feel a better connection and a new growing bond.

Call of Courage

Today seemed like a typical tuesday,  hard work, tiring lazy night.  Well Johnny and Wilene gave Josh a call.  It was so nice to hear his strong voice versus the last call where his head was exploding.  I was not feeling very good about myself but hearing about Josh's daily live in CA is just empowering.  Every word he stated seem to build a block of confidence in me.  Makes  me so excited for my trip for thanksgiving; can wait to see what seems like different side of the world.  I am now ready for a good night sleep and get started for tomarrow. 

The time difference from here in nc and there ca is so tripy to me.  I do not know why but it is just it is night right here but it is just getting dark there.  All I have to say is it blows my mind.

Rome was not built in a day

It was another kinda typical sunday.  Exhausted from the week before, lazing around the house, but of course I was not unproductive all day.  I had a great lunch with Johnny and Wilene at Ruby Tuesdays, after a bit of shopping for a few clothes for wilene and a few supplies at dollar general, I hurried to make my running appointment with Erin, Sandra, Danielle and surprise guest Bryan.  After our 3.5 miler we sat around and had a great dinner together at Danielles.  I sit here reflecting and partly preparing myself for another work week.  Something I often do on sundays, in ways help make it go by faster and kind of hone what I need to get accomplish.  Which gave me a relization that I need to focus myself a bit more.  Ever since Josh left, I have been driven to change so much and want to change it so fast but not seeing my result.  I need to focus on one or two things and others will fall into place.  I believe that my body should be my number one prioty and then of course I need to work on my job situation.

My body wise I need to focus on my diet most definatly.  My weight has been fluctuating a lot and really would like to get it down.  I am starting to getting out more and running but need to work on physical routine. 

Work wise there is only a few things left to do.  I have been looking more and more and thinking of my next step in my career path.  Nothing has become anymore clearer.  But I have to remember baby steps.

Ready, set, too early

Today I started back up running with the front runner group again.  I just got a little too run happy and started a few mins too early.  I had gotten to the location and so no one there and asume that they had already left, so I began my mad dash to catch up with them.  Of course being a little out of practice, I started to get out of breath and began a casual stroll on a beautiful saturday morning about 10 mins into my walk.  I see a group of guys running towards me, and it was the group.  I had started just a little bit too early.  I hardly new anyone in the group and it seem much has change.  It no longer is an all guy group but a few females have made their way into group and it seems to be a great addition.

After join up with the group half way into the run we all met up and grab a bite at brueggars bagels and enjoyed the rest of this beautiful day.

Adventure for Change

Early today someone that I hold so close left to begin a journey to find himself, and i feel totally inspired by his actions.  Ever since I met him and got to know him I knew he was destined to do great things, one of the major reasons I was so drawn to him.

As I stated earlier I feel inspired to use time as a catalyst to change myself.  I have felt a little crushed through out this year, I felt sorry for myself due to the fact that I worked so hard but never seem to get what I would desire. But enough is enough, for the most part I am an amazing person, I work hard, help out where I can not asking for anything in return.

I am going to stop wallowing in self pitty and push harder. To change things that do not seem right.  I will finally gain a voice, take some risk and even fail a few times but I will take the mistakes, for I have made quite a few in my time already, and learn from them.

The challenge to at least have one adventure each week, something out of my normal character to broaden my horrizons.  To increase my fitness, eat right and exercise regularly, get involved in somethings outside of work, so that I can have some amazing tales of my own.  Lastly repay a debt to a family who have helped me and carried me a lot.

I have definatly a long list of things to do and will work extra hard every day to get things done.  I truely feel a bit overwhelm but anxious to prove to myself that I can do this.

Lastly, I want to thank and apologies to Josh and Rusty for helping me set this blog up.  It does look amazing, I was on the dashboard instead of the actual blog page, I really like my background.  You guys are the best and thanks for the insperation and a few goals to work for.